I’m checking out my blog again. I miss it lately…so here I am. I can’t promise anything profound but you never know.
The following blurb has been sitting in my “Drafts” since I wrote it in April of 2010. I don’t know where my head was at that time…but it’s a crazy honest something I’m glad I found.
Am I supposed to quit? Is that it? Is that what you want, Life? I don’t know if I’m capable. There are times…like right now…when that’s what I want to do. I want to give up and go away…
The problem was that I couldn’t go away…and looking back that was my salvation. I had NO choice…and that reality taught me more about living than I can begin to explain to anyone except those that went through something similar. (And of course I don’t have to explain a damn thing to you, do I?)
Big deal. So what. You’re really cool and brave Andy.
Yeah…that’s not what I’m driving at here. I don’t want, or need, or deserve anything like that. I just want to make a point that’s been said a thousand different times…a thousand different ways…but in Andy-speak:
No matter how awful you think your life is…hang on. Keep your chin up, breathe, and you’ll get through it. Don’t stop believing and have faith that no matter what happens you’ll be in a better place. No matter how much you don’t want to…accept that it’s YOUR job to pick yourself up…dust yourself off…and get back in the race. Don’t ever give up.(Ever.) And if you don’t win…at least you’ll die trying. And that’s a pretty bad *ss way to live.
I don’t pretend to be all wise, but I DO know a few secrets of life that are so obvious we tend to miss them. What I mean to say is that I discovered certain truths by myself…and therefore I know them to be true. Oddly the truth I relied on the most happens to answer my plea above, even though I didn’t see it that way at the time. Looking back now I can see this is how the Universe/God was answering me:
Q: Am I supposed to quit? Is that it? Is that what you want, Life?
A: This too shall pass. No, Andy…you are not supposed to quit. Hang tough you Namby Pamby. (But promise me you won’t forget any of this, OK? If you do I’ll have to show you again.)
I believe I wrote about this before and if it’s redundant I apologize but only a little. This too shall pass bears repeating because so far in my life there are few words that offer such indisputable hope. Let’s try to remember that as we go through our day. It’s pretty damn great…don’t you think?
