I’m checking out my blog again. I miss it lately…so here I am. I can’t promise anything profound but you never know.
The following blurb has been sitting in my “Drafts” since I wrote it in April of 2010. I don’t know where my head was at that time…but it’s a crazy honest something I’m glad I found.
Am I supposed to quit? Is that it? Is that what you want, Life? I don’t know if I’m capable. There are times…like right now…when that’s what I want to do. I want to give up and go away…
The problem was that I couldn’t go away…and looking back that was my salvation. I had NO choice…and that reality taught me more about living than I can begin to explain to anyone except those that went through something similar. (And of course I don’t have to explain a damn thing to you, do I?)
Big deal. So what. You’re really cool and brave Andy.
Yeah…that’s not what I’m driving at here. I don’t want, or need, or deserve anything like that. I just want to make a point that’s been said a thousand different times…a thousand different ways…but in Andy-speak:
No matter how awful you think your life is…hang on. Keep your chin up, breathe, and you’ll get through it. Don’t stop believing and have faith that no matter what happens you’ll be in a better place. No matter how much you don’t want to…accept that it’s YOUR job to pick yourself up…dust yourself off…and get back in the race. Don’t ever give up.(Ever.) And if you don’t win…at least you’ll die trying. And that’s a pretty bad *ss way to live.
I don’t pretend to be all wise, but I DO know a few secrets of life that are so obvious we tend to miss them. What I mean to say is that I discovered certain truths by myself…and therefore I know them to be true. Oddly the truth I relied on the most happens to answer my plea above, even though I didn’t see it that way at the time. Looking back now I can see this is how the Universe/God was answering me:
Q: Am I supposed to quit? Is that it? Is that what you want, Life?
A: This too shall pass. No, Andy…you are not supposed to quit. Hang tough you Namby Pamby. (But promise me you won’t forget any of this, OK? If you do I’ll have to show you again.)
I believe I wrote about this before and if it’s redundant I apologize but only a little. This too shall pass bears repeating because so far in my life there are few words that offer such indisputable hope. Let’s try to remember that as we go through our day. It’s pretty damn great…don’t you think?
Welcome “back” Andy.
That’s Tom Waits in the picture, right? I love Tom Waits.
I guess we’ve been in the same boat these last few (?) months/years. It is what it is, they say. I am not sure what that means but I am happy to hear from you.
Hi Agnes…
It’s always good to hear from you and I’m glad you’re happy to hear from me. I’ve gotten very much sucked back into life…or I let myself get there. This blog used to be my protection from that crazy, artificial, clock centered way of living. I miss it…and people like you that read it and comment.
So…yeah…thanks for the visit. I’m sure I’ll be here more often now. It’s too messed up in the “real” world not to.
Thank you, thank you for reading after all this time…
PS–yes. Tom Waits
Andy,Welcome back!So happy that life is moving along for you.Hindsight is wonderful.I believe it is a gift from God.Keep up your writing it is a part of you that needs to come out and bless the world.A great thinker.Smile.Spread your joy!God bless your marriage .If you noticed my name has changed too!Life is truly in the now.But expressed through our past.Still praying for you from Illinois I have moved from Indiana.Cindy
Congrats to YOU, Cindy! Thanks for dropping by after all this time. I appreciate it very much. Life continues to challenge…but I’ll take these kind any day. (Know what I mean?) Have a great day and I’ll see you next time.