Pain, Pain…Go Away.
I didn’t grieve. I spent this past year avoiding sadness…attending to stuff and people instead. I wrote a bunch…formed new friendships…lost others…found my heart and lost it again. I thought I discovered the fast track through grieving (I hate that word) but I found out I’m not special at all. I’m on my knees again…feeling [...]
Read more »Past Thoughts About a Future Happening Now
This is all happening at once isn’t it? This life we have here on earth isn’t unfolding…it’s all happening in a single moment.
I’ll try to explain what I mean but may not pull it off. I was looking at my gut…which I don’t like very much. It’s not completely out of hand but a bit [...]
Role Call…
As far as I’ve been able to tell we build an image of ourselves…a character…and fight like crazy to develop a storyline around what we hope we are…or want to become. We choose our jobs, friends, lovers, clothes, cars, drink of choice, schools, hair styles, silverware, cologne…nearly every thing with an unconscious desire to create [...]
Read more »Cancer Losers…
I do not wish to offend.
This has been bugging me for a long time. The idea that someone “lost” their battle with cancer. In this case it’s not someone…it’s Laura. She didn’t lose…and I resent it when someone says that to me. I understand where that comes from because people don’t mean it in any [...]
Universal Distrust
Sometimes I feel like George Bailey in “It’s a Wonderful Life,” when he’s standing on the bridge after finding out the world was not a better place because he had never been born. He is crying to God, “I want to live again. I want to live again. Please God…let me live again.”
I’m trying pretty [...]









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